Today was really a great day!
With Alexis's baptism, and also sharon's party.

I feel like smacking myself.
because i always act the exact opposite of my feelings.
My body just automatically does it for me.
Its like some independant system that adjusts by itself.
I honestly can't seem to control myself.
Like I actually turn and face a different direction.

I CAN'T FIND THE PHOTO DANG IT MAN SERIOUSLY.
MUST HAVE DELETED IT. ARGH.
WHY DID YOU GO AND DELETE IT.. IT WAS SO NICE..
LIKE THE ONLY NICE PHOTO EVER.

okay forget it.
or maybe i should just forget this whole thing.
I am too paranoid and sensitive when it comes to this kind of stuff
and i really really detest the way i act.
Makes me feel really out of myself, which isn't cool at all.
Bothers me so much more than I thought it would,
and it is NOT GOOD AT ALL.
I want to live a carefree life, where we can do whatever we want,
according to our priorities, not tied down or attached to anything.
I don't wanna be all selfish and become bitter at lame stuff,
that isn't even important at this point of my life.